So, ever have that feeling that you’re working through some big life issues and somehow that leaked into your writing? Ever have that feeling that your entire work of “art” is really just you whining about your own life? That’s kind of how I feel right now.
It’s weirdly fascinating in that I hate what I have so far so much but it’s probably therapeutic. Still, I can’t write any more because I just don’t have enough information. My character is me, with a few major modifications and worlds apart. So I cannot change his life without changing mine.
It’s fiction, so I could just make it up, but it feels fake to me. I’m not trying to write what I know, but that’s what I’ve done, and now I don’t know any more. I want to start over and write a new story from scratch, with a character who is not like me.
This is kind of like an advice article, but it’s also me just rambling. Hope it helps someone…but it might just end up ruining your NaNoWriMo, who knows? I hope it doesn’t.
Trying to write a character who is completely undefined is a deathtrap. You can do it if you’re being meta, or if you are already clearly defined as a person and/or author yourself and are trying some kind of experiment. But having your main character be a young adult from nowhere special who is essentially no one special and ends up being special? You run into two problems.
1) It’s cliché
2) It’s just fancy role-play
It’s better to do what I had tried to do in the past, I feel. Create a diverse cast of characters, or at least one very interesting, well-defined character, and take THEM through a journey. Don’t explore the world yourself–explore the world through their eyes. Don’t try to ask “what would I do?” Ask “what would they do?”
It seems like obvious advice, and I feel like someone has given it to me before. But maybe this will help someone. And maybe someone can help me. Can you help? Please? What would you do? Start over? Change things?
I have just over 9000 words, which puts me at almost 1,000 behind. No worries, because I can catch up tomorrow! I write quickly when I have to, and when I’m inspired, but I cannot for the life of me write one more paragraph in my current state of mind.